When my first child was born, I was shocked at the amount of things I simply could not accomplish because my hands were always full. How can a baby that sleeps most of the time keep my hands so busy?

I resolve to trust the Lord even if is only one step at a time.

To be expectant, and still present

To be grateful with out condition

To be generous with what I have
and when I fail at all these things, to repent and lean on the Spirit to start again.

lately it feels like a bit of an aimless wandering

The traditions of my childhood felt like an anchor

A cornerstone of each and every year

A Christmas star if you will

Sometimes twinkle lights don’t make a dent in the darkness that surrounds us.

But in God’s sovereignty at the end of the darkest season, we celebrate the Light.

“The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.” John 1:5

The night was silent

or so it is said

As the Heaven’s waited in anticipation

Much of the world had given up waiting

The silence had dragged on

Longer than they had hoped

And hope became more of a wish than a promise

Please stay a little longer summer

Let them stay little a few more days

Because who knows how big they will be

when you return

The same spot on the calendar

Yet altogether different

Over the past weekend, for whatever reason, I ended up taking each kid on an errand solo. This was not an intentional “one in one time” solo date. It was purely for survival, making the most out of screen time for one or naptime for the other.

And yet

When hope is lost

Mind, heart, and body

Friends that stick closer than a brother

All waste away

Enough, all day every day

I hate the word enough

But it is the soundtrack of my life

The search for enough

So while God is a God of order and peace, He might use what we perceive as chaos to remind us that we cannnot manufacture our own outcomes in life. That we are not the ultimate authority in what happens to us.